Hi there

Hi everyone! (who i believe is now just kelsey and a couple people i tell about this blog..) It's been a while. I feel better. I am kinda scared for college, which is only 3 years away. I always suck at 3rd term. it is the worst for me, without fail. i am trying like wayyyy hard and doing everything.. but it still wow sucks... hahahaa. la quinta!!!!!!!!!!! Funnn stuff. :D I'm just tired. *Yawns* I know where i am loved. I am losing the weight. I tore my acl. it sucks, but it could be worse. I have been sloppy. i am a sloppy. haha. I'm soo tired as i'm writing this. today was a good day. so was yesterday. i love weekends. :) ☼☼☼ I've got wonderful friends and i am very lucky! I have an awesome family.

bye! bed  time

Heartless

I won't be a tool. I won't be a piece in his game. I won't be a means to an end or a chip to use. I won't be a stepping stool or a footnote, I won't be an actor on his stage! You can't make me love you, you can't make me want you. You can't make me need you! I depended on you and you let me down, all you bring me is pain. I thought you cared and I was wrong. Long ago I needed you. Long ago I wanted to be with you. But it has passed and so has the veil of innosence. I know who I am! I know what I want from you! I know what I need to do. You can go to hell. You can't fool me into thinking you care, I can see you pretending. I can see you care for no one but yourself, thats what I see when you use me I'm not stupid, I see I am a tool, a chip for you to use. You just lost your daughter. (Was I ever? If you exploit me so?) Maybe not forever, but for a good long time.

You were supposed to be my daddy. But you hurt me. You used me. You used me as a threat. Thats not okay daddy. It's not right. Your heartless.